Have you ever felt all stickified in life, not knowing what exactly to do or where to turn to next... trying to wrap your brain around whatever it is and "figure it all out"?
That's what I've been doing for the last 7 years of my life. Oh who am I fooling? That's what I've been doing ALL of my life.
Turns out, that wasn't working out so well for me. No matter how many 'self help' books I devoured, seminars I attended, meditations I attempted, written and verbal exercises I completed...even at my surest moments I still felt lost. Incomplete. Desiring more of... something?? There just seemed to be so many answers that I was missing. Which left me on a perpetual search.
Until the day I understood that the very answers I was seeking, were the cause of my woe.
What if every answer is a conclusion. Every conclusion a judgement. Every judgement a separation.
What if I'm not separate. From anything. From my neighbor, from the chair I sit on, from my enemy, from the breeze, from my lover, from the trees and the ocean. What if we are all made from the same stuff and are interconnected. ALWAYS. Whether we choose to recognize it or not. What if separation is the grandest illusion on this planet?
If we were all one, would it mean that each time I searched for an answer, drew a conclusion, or formed a judgment I was actually separating myself from oneness and in doing so, separating myself from... myself?? Holy moly. No wonder I've felt incomplete all this time. No wonder I was desiring more of... something. I was desiring more of me, which would allow me more of everything.
So, getting myself out of judgement and asking a WHOLE lot of questions, as opposed to searching for answers, is what I've been doing for 3 months since my last post. My life looks entirely different, and i can't wait to share it with you.
I had thought about retiring The Earthfood Experiment because my views on just about everything have shifted and changed... but I guess change is the only thing you can really be certain of in this lifetime. I wouldn't want it any other way, so I figure I'll just bring you and The Earthfood Experiment along with me on this journey, changing and shifting all the way. If that's okay with you.
Yay!! So glad you are keeping it open! I would love to journey with you!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you are here, Kathy!
DeleteWow...what a thought-provoking post. I applaud anyone who doesn't want to simply settle for "existing", but who has a desire to dig deeper and ask questions!
ReplyDeleteGood luck on this journey; I look forward to reading more of your insights!
Thank you, sweet Angie. There is an infinite sea of oneness, gratitude, and possibility available for us all to tap into. It's the accessing of it, one-by-one, that will change this world into the place we know deep down in our souls that it can be. How exciting is that?!
DeleteIt is my aim to access this 'sea' fully, so that I can not only create a life that truly works for me, but guide others who are searching as well.
I will look forward to seeing your beautiful face around :)
I'm so glad to see a post from you! I was wondering if I'd accidentally unsubscribed because I hadn't seen anything from you in such a long while. I'm looking forward to hearing about your journey and so glad you are going to continue to share with us in this space.
ReplyDeleteHi Love!
DeleteI'm sure many people were wondering the same thing. Haha! Change is a whirlwind sometimes.
I love it. And I love that you are here with me on this journey.
Really great things are coming our way... get ready ;)